My weakness is that I care too much

Holy Moly!!!!

2005-08-29T02:29:59Z

Whoa! Guess who's back. Ha! So I guess you could say I've neglected my lj. It's been over a year. Anyways. I'm bored, nothing else to do. Just watching this hurricane, that's about it! I get to go in Indiana Tuesday, woo hoo! I'll be outta PC for a while, score! So I guess if anyone still reads this(sorry again, lol) ya'll wanna update on me. I'm basically just working, the real world sucks. I'm not even gonna start on the love life stuff, I'll save that for a later entry. But I guess that's about it. Leave me some love!!!!!

blink182rokr16 @ 2004-05-29T00:07:00

2004-05-29T05:08:11Z

Well I tried to update in this thing. But I don't know what happened to it. I'll write more later! ~Crystal~

blink182rokr16 @ 2003-10-25T20:45:00

2003-10-26T01:44:34Z

So yeah it's been FOREVER since I wrote in here. Yeah I've been writing in my xanga. But I think I'm going to quit that along w/ this. I dunno. I don't have anything to talk about anymore. But yeah, how come when I plan something or hope something happens, it doesnt seem to even come close. I dunno. I'm going now. Bye to those who read this.

blink182rokr16 @ 2003-08-27T17:27:00

2003-08-27T22:21:41Z

I know I haven't written in here in like a week. Just so much drama! It's crazy I'm tellin ya. Guys are lame(sorry to those nice guys out there) It has rained soo freakin much.Almost every day. Well it rained a lot my freshman year & I suppose its gonna rain a lot my senior year! heh. Well I'm gonna go. bye kids!

blink182rokr16 @ 2003-08-18T12:33:00

2003-08-18T17:29:27Z

Hey kids. Yeah I haven't written much in here lately. I stayed home from school today. But I feel like crap, so I'm not having to much fun. I gotta xanga journal too. I was really bored Friday or whenever it was. Here's the link if ya wanna visit it. http://www.xanga.com/LiLCrystal2004/ A lot of people from P.C. are on it so yeah...oh well. I'm going to go. later.

blink182rokr16 @ 2003-08-15T22:25:00

2003-08-16T03:21:32Z

Well atleast I survived the first week of my senior year! I haven't written in here in about a week. Sorry guys. It's like after 7 hours of school & every now & then 2 hours of band..I just kinda want to go to sleep. But there's nothin really too exciting going on. :o( Well its less than 9 months till Graduation! I was talkin to one of my friends sayin that someone could have a baby on the stage at graduation...well I guess it was a "had to be there" moment. heh. Where's everyone at? no one is online. Well if you wanna IM me its LiLCrys1217. toodlez!!

°~Crystal~°

blink182rokr16 @ 2003-08-09T21:58:00

2003-08-10T02:55:59Z

I about forgot about this thing. Well school started. I'm a senior! finally. My schedule is pretty easy. earth/space science, band, american government(that's my hardest class) & band. Me & Holley went to Destin yesterday. It was fun. It was good to be out of P.C. w/ my friend than my parents. Graduation is May 14th! I'm happy.
So I was watching this movie & it was talkin about long distance relationships & all. It got me thinking....I don't know whats going on. I'm just not really excited about it anymore..what does that mean!??!??! :o(
Well no one is online & yeah there's nothing to do. bye!

blink182rokr16 @ 2003-07-30T21:58:00

2003-07-31T02:55:25Z

Well I thought I'd update just cause. Nothin too much going on...just drama, thats the # 1 reason I wanted to quit band. It's so freakin crazy! Eh, anywho! I'm about to fall asleep..no joke. I think I find out my schedule for next year tomorrow & my parking decal! yee haw!!! lol. ok I'm about to fall asleep...toodlez!

*Nothin' beats a buck & a duck!* :o)

blink182rokr16 @ 2003-07-29T08:05:00

2003-07-29T13:04:37Z

Yeah. so its been forever since I updated..w/ band & Matt being here. by the way he left today. :o( But band has been dramafied... as always. This summer has been.....crazy. Well thats about it..I've been sitten here about 10 minutes & this was all I could come up with.

blink182rokr16 @ 2003-07-18T14:16:00

2003-07-18T19:13:23Z

I really hate panama city. the people(well some of them) SUCK!..yeah the first thing I want to do after I graduate is get out of this freakin place. I hate it here. & everyone is like woo spring break capital or whatever...b/s! its so freakin gay & lame here.....anyways. yeah I'm mad. I think me & my mom are gonna head to wal mart...I wish Holley could come. but I guess she's workin. well later!

blink182rokr16 @ 2003-07-14T16:11:00

2003-07-14T21:07:03Z

Well today is me & Matt's 2 months together! <3 YAY! You should be happy. & next Wednesday he will be here! YAY again! lol.
There's nothing else to talk about. So I'm out! fo rizzle! lol.

blink182rokr16 @ 2003-07-13T23:50:00

2003-07-14T04:49:40Z

I just thought I'd update.
Nothin too much going on today...went to Chipley today. yee haw! Hung out w/ my half bro. I thought I was gonna take pics up there..cuz its really pretty up there..but no I didnt. :o( Oh well there's always next time I suppose. Well tomorrow is me & Matt's 2 months together! yay. heh. He'll be here in about 9 days. heh. I'm happy. anywho. Band starts soon(next Monday) :o( But it gives me something to do through the morning hours. heh.
Well I'm just babbeling now. I'll update tomorrow too I suppose.
toodlez! :o)

blink182rokr16 @ 2003-07-10T16:37:00

2003-07-10T21:33:48Z

It's just toooooo dang hotttttt!!! I'm melting away as I speak...:o(

blink182rokr16 @ 2003-07-10T00:05:00

2003-07-10T05:04:26Z

So yeah..not a dang thang goin on..geez. If this is gonna be what the rest of summer is(talking to no one. going nowhere) then I'm ready for school or band or something..dang..I'm bored outta my mind...I really dislike Panama City. Everyones like "woo hooo P.C. spring break capital & blah blah blah" its boring, the people are jerks. GRRR. Anywho. me & my mom chilled today, went driving everywhere..lookin for stuff. it was cool. oh well. I'm going. bye.

blink182rokr16 @ 2003-07-05T22:34:00

2003-07-06T03:30:07Z

yeah. so I havent updated in a few days. Nothin really going on..happy late 4th of july guys! but yeah..thats about it. later!

blink182rokr16 @ 2003-07-02T00:41:00

2003-07-02T05:40:30Z

Well I heard from Matt today..so that was cool. I havent heard from him in forever! Geez I really wish he lived here, cuz I just get so lonley like all the time about people hookin up & what not. Dang, long distance relationships are tough. Oh well off to bed. bye.

blink182rokr16 @ 2003-07-01T00:11:00

2003-07-01T05:08:37Z

::sigh::......I wish I was waiting for someone to get online.. but, as usuall, I never am....

blink182rokr16 @ 2003-06-28T21:47:00

2003-06-29T02:51:33Z

Sorry guys it took me so long to update...so much stuff going on..famous people...hangin w/ Holley..stayin up till 3 in the mornin online..wow I'm tired. heh. Yeah so anywho. I only got comments from 2 people...but there were 6 comments. thanks luke for 5 of them. so here are my lil writings. they suck & they are lame..but I dunno..oh well. So here they are.....

6/25/03
What's happening between us?
I feel liek we are drifting apart.
It seems like you don't want to talk to me anymore.
What did I do wrong?
Please tell me, I really want to know.
We used to be so close...
Inseparable on the phone & online.
Now I feel like a magnet couldn't bring us together.
I want to trust & love you so much.
But a little voice in my head is saying that I can't.
I don't know what to do.
Nothing is making sense.
Just give me a sign that you still care.
That's all I ask.

6/26/03
Where have you gone?
Your nowhere.
I feel that your trying to hide from me.
But I'm not sure.
I just want some answers.
Do you still love me?
This separation is harder than I thought.
I want you to be here.
But in these past few weeks we've grown apart.
What's happening?
This isn't fair.
Just tell me if you still care.

~I know they don't rhyme or anything. But I dunno its just how I felt. well tell me what you think!!

blink182rokr16 @ 2003-06-26T23:15:00

2003-06-27T04:13:27Z

ok yeah. so i wrote some more lil poem things. they aren't the best. they kinda suck actually..compared to hlly's heh. but yeah. I'll post a few if I get 5 comments from you guys to show me that you care. cuz I'm not postin em just for the heck of it. heh. you gotta work to read my stuff. lol. later

blink182rokr16 @ 2003-06-26T19:34:00

2003-06-27T00:33:18Z

Well I got my Chevelle cd! :o) Next is Linkin Park..lol Hlly!
Geez I need more guy friends in P.C. Its like yeah I have enough friends that are girls & thats cool ya know, you can talk about guys(heh last night hlly!lol) but I dunno I get tired of hangin out w/ girls..sorry, but its the truth. Oh well. I'm gonna go. later!

blink182rokr16 @ 2003-06-25T23:48:00

2003-06-26T04:50:35Z

yup..guys suck..they deserve to pay for all the pain & misery they put us girls through....so me & hlly home fry have come up with a good idea....::drumroll & dramatic light movement::
castrate all the guys in the world! hahahaha..so what if we wont have kids..the guys deserve a lesson!! ahahhahahah.

ok thats all. tell me what you think of the idea!

blink182rokr16 @ 2003-06-24T23:02:00

2003-06-25T04:02:20Z

Well. I'm really lonley & crap. I dunno. I've been so stressed for like the past 3 & 1/2 weeks, its just caught up with me I suppose. & its like every song I'm listening to is kinda depressing..& I don't mean to, but thats like all the stations are playing. it just kinda reminds me of me & matt. which I haven't heard from him in a week..so I dunno. I'm just sad & crap.

Other than that. I guess everythings ok..oh yeah. people should call before they stop by! Thats all. bye.

blink182rokr16 @ 2003-06-23T21:09:00

2003-06-24T02:06:36Z

today's not my day. I feel like crap...
my knees hurt my head hurts
I went to sleep from like 5:30 to 8:00.
I dunno, nothin else to update about.
Later

blink182rokr16 @ 2003-06-22T23:03:00

2003-06-23T04:15:23Z

:o( I'm lonley & sad...I miss Matt..eh.
I was watching this movie on ABCfamily & yeah it was a really cute movie..but it was about something that she gets this guy shes always dreamed of or something & that made me sad! :o( So yeah.

& Hlly has been away on AIM for like 40 mins so I have no one to talk to! :o( come back to me hlly! step away from the light!..light bad...dark good!

anywho. I need/got to go to sleep. toodlez!

blink182rokr16 @ 2003-06-21T22:10:00

2003-06-22T03:15:10Z

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and will do anything for a few bucks. Take it
off girl, but keep it PG-13 please.

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that's crazy!! but I had to post that though. it was too funny to pass up